Where is the Love?

Do you ever feel that you need to be somewhere else? I am kinda at that place now, always wanting to be somewhere else. You may think that I must have a shit life to be feeling this way, but I actually don’t , I have a good life. I have a job that I do care about, a family and friends that I love, I earn enough money to afford some pleasures in life. So I do not have a shit life at all, but all the same there is something missing and it has been missing for a long time now. So why feel like this you say, well I think it is because I do not feel complete and I have no idea how to complete or what direction to go in to start on the path to complete it. You may say that it is the simple urges like get boyfriend, get married and have babies would be a good start, but some how I don’t think that would be enough. Yes I would love to meet a man that think and feels a lot for me and to be honest I would love to have kids, but in all honesty the way my life is going that these things are not likely to happen, well any time soon. No there is something else missing and I think that might be harmony. You may think harmony? What is this chick on about? Well do you ever look around and see people getting on , not couples with their tongues down each others throats, no just that people are being nice to each other , you know just people taking a genuine interest in each other appreciating what the other is saying instead of people shutting each other down.

You are now probably think this person just needs a good shag or religion? I don’t think I am in the need of either, but like the Black Eyed Pees I am thinking where is the love?
I think I have lost my faith and I have been loosing it for a long time now, well since I started to think this way and I think that would be as young as six year old and as each decade ticks on , this feeling gets worse. I think that perhaps if I leave this country I would feel better, but I am unsure if this would be the case, then I thought if I shut myself away, would the feelings go away? That would be avoiding the problem. I get angry like the next and I have my off days but I would never stab or shoot someone, I question everyday why on earth would someone walk out there door and do such things. I see kids screaming in the street and even heard them say were are going on the terrorise some people. I mean what the hell is that all about? Kids, deliberately going out there to create fear in other peoples lives because they do not like the look of them?

Halley’s Interview

You flick on the news and there is no good news, just misery people kill each other, or trying to out do someone else, for example I heard an interview, the other day. This DJ was interviewing Halley Barrie, she was with Hugh Jackman, anyway this DJ said (who is white) starting to say to Halley whilst imitating an America accent, something like “I am a Blackman” and he didn’t understand why she would be upset. I am a white person and it pissess off when people say things like that. They are being racist and hurt full, I question what Halley did to this person, besides being a successful, beautiful woman? Why would someone deliberately go out to offend people and why one earth do the mass populace think its funny? Also why Hugh Jackman did not support his co-worker?

Though I do not feel like suicide at this moment in time, I do wonder how can we change the world. There are some many causes and you are wondering where to start, especially when there are major fat cats still taking the cream of the top in charities.
How does one person change the world without the plight consuming them? Dose the life really have feel lifeless? When will people stand up . Can one voice start the change and unit against all atrocities around the world. There are so many questions that I don’t think can be answered and like most people feel lost in the wilderness of what we call life.

Up Date in Iraq!

So this guy in Iraq, I wrote to him for over two months and the letters were positive, I thought he liked me, he said, like most men do, I will ring you, well yes you guessed right he didn’t. Instead he sent a general e-mail to his friends and included me in it, saying, hi I am back home safe and sound in Blighty. I sent an e-mail back a few days after because I really like this guy but did not want to scare him off. I said welcome back made a brief reference to the world cup, I’ve had no response and no phone call, why do guys make all the signals to say they like you, even their friends come up to you and say he really likes you. These guys are not teenagers by the way they are all in their late 30’s! So why would he say it was a really nice surprise to get and e-mail and letters and that he would ring me and then nothing?
I really do not get men, though I am hurt, I am also determined to get back out there and find someone to share my life with and perhaps to gallop off in to the sunset with my knight in shinning armour.

I am still clinging on to the belief that there are some nice intelligent kind, honest men are still out there?